Unraveled in July

written July 24, 2020 at 1:20 pm 

Thoughts disjointed 

Uneven

Unraveled 

So many elevens

Never any lucky sevens 

Locked up 

Locked out

Steaming the bell jar 

The oven door the stairway to heaven 

Slits on the wrists like elevens 

Cut up and down not across if you're serious about ascending 

I'm tired of dissenting 

I keep descending

I'm falling 

I'm falling 

Loss of control 

The switchboard on fire 

The wires are CROSSED

SEVERED

You loved it when we went to the beach at night

We played in the water 

We were free 

Now the edge of the water just makes me want to walk in

Slip in

Give in

But I hold me back

Tell her it's a sin

I got a boat 

Come on get in

She tells me she knows how to swim 

I say okay get in

........

The sun is setting 

I lose you 

My self 

In the horizon 

J.S.

Brooklyn, NY 2020