Pandemic Prose 4/20/2020

You want prison

Or you want pain?

Which one hurts more again? 

Confinement behind bars 

Or the emotional pain that just settle in 
Like it's in your brain paying mortgages 

You can't ever get out of it 
You can't ever let go of it

You stuck like you touched me live wire 
and I was spitting electricity 
I was foaming at the mouth 
Enemy of the state 
Now they getting rid of me 
But you STUCK 
I SAID -
There ain't no getting rid of me 

There's no bleaching Oxi cleaning me 
It's babies shaking me like rattles
Swallowing then OD .... (SILENCE)
Ing.

Yeah I go OT -
All the way over the top 
And to the left 

Like a PAR tee
Like NRA 
Like sinister   Lob bies

Addicted to coke like a fuck boy
Hobby

Hell in a handbasket
These times I called them like a shottie 

Future was wrong 
Now it's fuck it Mask ON

Social distances like we wasn't already all alone 
Now it just show 
I been have out emotional ten foot pole 

Put my feet up to avoid piss flowing on the 2 train floor 
These New York bums is fuckin assholes
He looking he smiling while he pour it on the floor 
It's only 2pm y'all 
Like what we here for ?
New York is just a urinal 
Same shit everyday and it's the same fucking BOWL.
It's no melting pot   FUCK. OUTTAAA here !!
Y'all.

I be mad 
I be spewing 
Like I'm Aussie y'all
They all on fire yet it seems like we were all just suis Charlie y'all 
 
Ethiopia Ebola
It is what it is and we carrying on

I saw a man carrying three suitcases once 
Up a hill 
In the sun all alone and I wondered as I watched 
How he gon get on up 
He put one in front of the other 
It was slow but he was pushing on 

I marveled as I watched 

I knew what I had to do 

Put one foot in front of the other and carry on 
(Like a fight on a flight)

I carry on carry on
Hooking rights like United Airlines 

If you whack ask me for my Insta I be like yeah ayight
Rolling my eyes

Tight at you 
Like a cockblock gone awry .....

J.S.
Brooklyn, NY April 2020